An Update On E-Kate

Hi Friends!

It's Heather, E-Kate's sister, posting a long overdue update on my courageous sister.

Emily's surgery was postponed until 5pm on the 27th. Poor thing had not had any food or water since the evening before so she had a killer headache all day waiting on her surgery to start. When it was time for them to insert the IV the nurse tried several (4? maybe) times but was unable to insert it because she was slightly dehydrated due to lack of liquids in almost 24 hours.

Our parents were with her as she waited for her surgery time. (I was unable as I have a nursing baby). They injected some sort of blood thinner INTO HER STOMACH (OMGosh, I know!) and finally the anesthesiologist was able to place her IV.

The surgery was a success and prayers were answered! They were able to operate laproscopically and also remove her gallbladder! Thank you, Lord!

For the first 24 hours or so her pain was manageable. Rising to a '5' when it was time for medicine but mostly hovering around a 3.

She is currently on an all liquid diet & will stay on liquids only for a few weeks. Her stomach is still really small so she is only able to take one or two sips of something before feeling full.

She was released this morning (after a horrible night with a horrible nurse!) and is at my mom's house, resting & relaxing in her hot pink Snuggie. I hope to see her tomorrow.

Right now, please continue praying for comfort, quick healing, and that she pootaroops (Farts for all you non-Nickerson/Mullvains). (And, on that note pray for my mom because when Emily finally breaks wind it's going to be scary for mama! LOL)

I think Em is ready (and wanting) to receive texts so feel free to send her a text of encouragement! AND, I know she is itching for visitors so feel free to arrange that with her as well.

Love,
Heather

The New Chapter: A New Life

Can you believe it? TOMORROW is the big day. The day I have been waiting for. The day I thought would never come and now here it is....and NOW I feel like it has come too fast.

I am so in awe as to how quickly it has all come together and how ready I really am. I ate some of my favorite foods today...it will be my last for a while. Since I am NPO (no food) past 5:00 pm today, I was trying to "Cram" it in today. I did not overeat, but wanted to make sure I was not going to be hungry tonight and tomorrow. Starting at 5:00pm tonight I have been on a clear liquid diet. I guess my last official meal was a can of chicken broth and a sugar free popsicle. I will be living on that for the next few days.

As for the surgery details, I have to be at the hospital at noon tomorrow and my surgery is supposed to start at 2:00pm. The surgery is about 2-3 hours then I will be in recovery for a few hours then to my room. I will try to have my sister update my the blog tomorrow evening and I will personally try to update it on Tuesday. Hopefully Tuesday evening I will be able to go home, but we shall see.

I am so blessed to have the opportunity to have this surgery and be able to fully do what I feel called to do: serve God. My weight has put up a barrier for me to be able to fully dedicate time for the Lord. I want to go on missions trips, but can't comfortably because of the airplanes. I want to travel but my weight holds me back. I am eager to see what God wants to do in my life during this time.

I will be entering a new chapter to a new life. Will I change? Maybe for the better. I really dont feel like I will change too much. My foundation is solid in Christ, it is just his turn now to solidify life and be ready for his purposes.

Checking off for a while, but I hope to keep you posted when it is all over with.

Contest!!!

In appreciation for you readers, I wanted to do a little contest:)

I cant believe I have almost had 1,000 viewers.

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Pretty in Pink and More

Well since I really only have one more day until surgery, I had to take today to tie up some loose ends and get myself ready for the "new me" come monday.

I had a fantastic Christmas where I was blessed with a new Pink Ipod Shuffle. I specifically wanted the shuffle because it is super duper small and I can take it to my new best friend; the gym.

Last night I spent far too long trying to get it all hooked up and charged and tonight well.....I spent far too long buying new songs to put on it. After all, it is my workout device so I needed some new beats. Well, so here she is....the new songs for my shuffle. (As a side note, all of the songs on here are the "clean" versions) Don't judge me, I really like Britney Spears to work out too.

Gasolina -Daddy Yankee
Brat Pack-The Rocket Summer
Diamonds-The Washington Projects
Skanless Electric Funk Megamix-Street Jams: Electric Funk Part I Hip Hop/Rap
Gasolina -Daddy Yankee
I Was so Alone -The Rocket Summer
Bounce-Timbaland
Rockit -Herbie Hancock
Radar -Britney Spears
Womanizer -Britney Spears
What Is Love -Haddaway
Smooth Criminal -Michael Jackson
Afraid-Nelly Furtado & Attitude
Low -Flo Rida
My Humps -Black Eyed Peas
Toxic -Britney Spears
Pon de Replay -Rihanna
Don't Stop the Music -Rihanna
Boom Boom Pow -Black Eyed Peas
Lady Marmalade- Christina Aguilera)
Dead and Gone (feat. Justin Timberlake- T.I.
Disturbia -Rihanna
Let It Rock -Kevin Rudolf & Lil Wayne
Stronger -Kanye West
Don't Phunk With My Heart -Black Eyed Peas

Anyone have any more good songs I can add? I guess realistically 2 hours is plenty of music for a workout, but hey, I always love to get new music.

On another note, my sister bought me a Pink Snuggie. Should I be embarrassed? Nope, not me. It is so warm and I look pretty darn cute I must say:)

On the topic of Pink, I also got a new Pink maglight for my keys and a cute Pink Swiss Army Knife. Pretty sweet eh?

************Ok back to my day****************

Ok so, today I had my "last meal " at California Pizza Kitchen. Though tomorrow is officially my last "normal" day for a while, tomorrow I am going to have to eat a lower fat diet and be off of solid food at 5pm. Clear liquids for me from 5 pm tomorrow for a whole week.

I also spent time preparing and cleaning my house. My mom was gracious enough to help me clean my house so when I get back from surgery and home, I will have to do minimal housework. Isnt she nice?

Friends, I am so excited, I am getting my life in order while it all seems to be in chaos as well. I mean lets really look at it,

I AM HAVING GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY!!!!!

Am I in panic? No it just feels so crazy! It has come SO FAST!!!! Just a month ago or so, I was announcing that I was going to get it done, now it is almost time. I am just so amazed how time flies!

My life will be a little crazy for a while, but I am so eager to start over. I am so excited to go to the gym, RUN, clean and not feel like I am going to die, change my eating habits, change life as I know it, and Learn what God is going to teach me!

Friends, thank you so much for your prayers, support, and unconditional love! I owe some of my peace and comfort to each and every one of you!

More to come tomorrow, but my last thing to complete in my perfect day is to spend time with my Creator. He is so good, and I am so blessed.

Digging to the Root....

Well dear friends, the countdown continues...
4 days until showtime!
WOW time really feels like it has flown by!

I can hardly concentrate on the surgery with Christmas right around the corner! I am so excited to spend the Christmas Season with my family! They are such a blessing in my life!

Now that we got the "house cleaning" details out, lets chat about the real reason why I am posting this.

I have spent sometime talking with some people VERY close to me. They know me more that I know myself sometimes! The overwhelming concern about the GBP surgery is to really figure out what the root of my weight gain really is. Like I have said before, and it has been brought to my attention, GBP is a tool that must be used properly. Though weight loss is basically "fool proof" the first year, I still need to come to the root of why I am who I am.

I liken my struggle to the struggle an alcoholic has. Rehab is considered a tool, and pretty "fool proof" while you are in Rehab. When you get out, that is a whole different story. Your old life "moves back in" if you never deal with the cause of the problem.

I would say that is the same with the GBP surgery. This surgery is most definitely about being healthy, exciting to be thinner, but an opportunity to find myself and come to the root of why I have gained weight in the first place. I have some ideas that I will probably eventually share with you once I can deal with them and understand them.

I think we must all find the root of our issues. If you are alcoholic, adulterer, sex addict, bitter person, anorexic, drug addict, (the list could go on) you must find what the real reason for doing these things are. Could it be that you feel God is not good enough? Were you hurt as a child, adult, or still hurting? These are all things I must ask myself. I must seek the root of my issues.

Though I have not fully figured out my issues for gaining weight, I know that the GBP is going to jump start me into really figuring out who I am.

I also think that my foundational beliefs about myself are going to be rocked. The Truth of Jesus will not change, but I think my understanding of beauty, love, marriage, discipline and satisfaction will all change. It is easy to say "vanity does not matter" or "it does not matter if I have money" but what happens when you have vanity? Do your morals go out the window? Or what about having a lot of money? All of a sudden do you feel like you must have more?

I know that this is going to be a challenging time in my life, but I know that God is going to use me to witness in other people's lives, and He will also use it to work in my life.

I think sometimes God gives us things that are challenging to show who He is when we dont know who we are.

I am reminded by this scripture Romans 5:1-4 ¹Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, ²through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. ³Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; ⁴perseverance, character; and character, hope.


God I am ready. Please teach me, show me, and strengthen me.

NOT ME MONDAY!

This week, I certainly did NOT wish I could go back to the "good ol' days" and have a dance party. Since I live alone, it is something that I can't just do by myself. Well, I did go to my sisters house this last weekend. We certainly did NOT have a dance party after the kids had gone to bed. I certainly did NOT make fun of her inability to do anything with hands except pump them vigorously upward to "raise the roof." After all of my hip-hop dancing instruction she still did NOT get it. And when I say she did NOT I really mean it. Sissy, maybe another day....

In the spirit of Christmas, I attended a work party. We certainly did NOT have a white elephant party, and I certainly did NOT bring the "as seen on TV" Bumpits. Though my item was fun, the item that got the biggest response certainly was NOT the Harry Potter Jelly Bellies. Don't worry the flavors of the jelly bellies were NOT vomit, ear wax, booger, baby wipe, moldy cheese, rotten egg, and pencil shavings. And don't worry about me, I really truly did NOT eat on that was called booger. No, I do NOT fall into peer pressure. One thing I can say is it has been a LONG time since I ate my own boogers, and I certainly will still abstain from the practice!

Join me in your NOT ME MONDAY excursions.

From the Bottom of HER heart! (Guest post from E-Kate's sister)

So when my sister asked me to write a guest post on her blog tonight I wasn't sure what I'd say. I wish I could tell you that I am as witty as she is & this is going to have you rolling on the floor like her Not Me Monday posts, but, unfortunately if you came for wits & giggles then you will be sadly disappointed.

Instead, I couldn't help but reminisce on our lives growing up & how I've been a player in her weight journey. Maybe not the KEY player but as her only sibling for much of our childhood & only sister our lives are intertwined like only those with a sister could understand.

Growing up, I never had to worry about my weight. People didn't that we were sisters because we looked so different.
Me: Skinny, Blonde, Hazel Eyes
Emily: Chubby, Brunette, Blue Eyes

I didn't understand why Emily couldn't lose the weight (or even why she gained it in the first place) and I wasn't very kind. While I was never intentionally unkind I was certainly insensitive. I thought she just had to make an effort & the weight would come off. My 'encouragement' was purely based in vanity. I wanted her to be pretty. I wanted her to be skinny. I wanted her to feel good about herself (the way I felt) when boys checked her out. I got my self worth in my looks & wanted her to as well.

At this point in our relationship, I want my sister to know that I am sorry if I ever made her feel uncomfortable because of her weight. I want her to know that she is the 'Pretty One' of the family now & will still be after the surgery. (***Emily begs to differ)

Most of all, I want her to know that she has taught me that it's not just about looks. That it's important to play up the features that God has given us but that it's more important to treat our bodies as His temple.

Emmers, you are about to embark on a long & I'm sure at times difficult journey. I admire you for taking this step to get healthy. I love you.

From the Sister of:

Posts Coming Soon.....

8 more days until surgery!

Before pictures to come soon...

I have been away from blogging for a few days to catch up on life.

A new post coming tomorrow....and also a Guest Blogger will be contributing to my page.

Be patient and enjoy!

Pre-Op and Grocery Shopping

Tonight was officially my last night of grocery shopping for a LONG TIME. I was apprehensive to buy too much because ummm.....hello, I will not need food for a while.

I have also made a commitment not to buy too much junk and NOT PIG OUT right before surgery. Truly, what is the point? I am getting the surgery done for a second chance. I would like to live to see it.

During my shopping trip, I did make a few minor adjustments to the list....

1. Marshmallow Mateys Cereal (it is a the CHEAP but BETTER version of Lucky Charms)
2. Sour Patch Kids....nope totally NOT eating them right now as I blog :)
   
3. Corn Dogs, Gross....yep, Good.....YUP

Not to bad if I do say so myself:)
I have a week and a half until I will be living on liquid for a while.

NEXT UP...........................................

Yesterday was my Pre-Op appointment with Doctor C. I really did not have many questions for him. I wanted to make sure that I understood everything properly before I go into surgery.

He discussed with me the possibility of leaving in my gallbladder (even though I have gallstones) because the gallbladder can be hard to access during surgery. I would prefer it out because it would be one less surgery I will eventually have to have. I could also join the family club. I think the people in my family who have lost their gallbladder as followed; sister, mom, dad, aunt. I need to be inducted in the Gallbladder Expulsion Club.

I also discussed in further detail about getting pregnant in the future. He reiterated that there is not evidence that suggests miscarriage rates or infertility are increased post GBP. But if it is an issue, my sister has offered multiple times to be a surrogate. Thanks Iya:) Does your husband know about that yet? Hehe

It is still unclear actually how I will feel afterward. Everyone reacts differently and it was best explained to me that GBP is just as easy to explain as childbirth is to explain. Everyone is different. Let's pray that will be a breeze.

As for more surgical details, my surgery is December 28th. I am the 3rd case of the day, which means that surgery will probably be around 2pm. I will probably not get back to my room until 9pm that night. Again, if all is as planned, I will be discharged the next night or early the morning of the 30th. If you plan on visiting me, please call my cellphone or leave me a blog message so I can make sure someone calls you.

I asked how much weight I actually have to lose. What an EYE OPENER!!!! The doctor said about 200lbs YIKES!!! If you weight less than that, I DON'T want to hear it:) Just kidding. So it will be quite a process of about 18 months-2 years. I am ready to embark on that.

I also asked about physical activity. The doctor basically said it is up to my lead. I NEED to be walking for about 5-10 minutes every hour to keep blood circulating and stuff, but other than that I am free to go to the gym anytime after surgery, seeing as I feel well enough.
My sister (I hope) will be updating my blog while I am in surgery. This is probably the first time she is hearing about this. Hope that is ok sissy:) I want to make sure I keep you faithful readers up to date.

Any more questions you have? Let me know:)

As for prayer requests, I have a few regarding my surgery.

1. Wisdom for the Doctors and Staff
2. The intubation process. Since I had that tumor in my jaw and it was replaced with a metal joint, I am at high intubation risk. They are worried about knocking something out of place. Please pray the the intubation goes ok. And of course I dont remember it:)
3. That I can be a light in the hospital. I pray that I can impact the people around me for the better.
4. Of course...minimal pain and easy adjustment.

Thank you for your prayers!

NOT ME MONDAY!!!!!! and more.......

Ever do something that you are not too proud to admit? Oh good me neither! (hehe)

This week was full of many surprising things I certainly did NOT do....

For example, I certainly did not pomp my hair so big this week that I had to open my sun-roof to accommodate my hair. NEVER, I do not wear my hair that big, and if I did, I certainly would not wear it like that to work.

Additionally, I am NOT so addicted to peopleofwalmart.com that I look at it everyday. Nope, NOT ME! And furthermore, I DON'T look at it daily in hopes to see someone I actually know. Really, because I do NOT know people who might actually walk out of their homes in some of the clothes I see on there.

One last for the week of things I did NOT do......this is going to blow my cover for sure. For some background, my sister and I certainly do NOT sound EXACTLY alike. Nope, and her husband certainly does NOT ever get us mixed up....and furthermore, our Dad certainly can tell our voices apart....and FOR SURE our own mother can tell us apart. In an effort to confuse people, me sister and I did NOT record each others voicemail. And even IF we did, people would certainly be able to tell us apart.

*******CHANGE OF SUBJECT**********

EXACTLY 14 Days from now I will have had Gastric Bypass Surgery already! Tomorrow is my pre-op appointment. I do not really have a lot of questions to ask. Anything YOU can think I might ask? I really have a peace about it all. Nervous? A little bit. I just really don't know how much pain to expect. I guess only time will tell. Until it all happens, I will just keep plugging along and wait and see what it is all going to be like.

Also, since I wrote last about the $1400 that needs to be paid for the Medical Bills, my dad offered to pay it out of his medical expense fund. I was ready and willing to take him up on his offer, but realized that it is more like a medical credit card not money sitting in savings. If you know me well enough, I do not believe in debt (thanks to Dave Ramsey) so I have decided to use an emergency fund I have saved. Because of this, please pray that I do not have a real emergency, because after this surgery I will be tapped out for a while. I trust that God provides a way and He is good.

Remember me talking about Image a week or so ago, I want to leave you with this song from a dear friend. I feel like she spells it out. IMAGE by, Nova Scroll down to her music.

Happy Listening!

I Will Stop For......

I am going to share something straight from the class of being the "Fire Chief's Daughter."

PLEASE, if safe, STOP if you are the witness of a car accident.

Random thought right? Well tonight on my way home from work I was on the phone (my bluetooth of course) when the person in front of me accelerated and ran right into the back of a mini-van. In a instant, the glass shattered the back window, and the car came to a halt only after sending a chain reaction to hit 2 other cars. Four cars total were involved in the accident. How many people stopped? ONE! That was me. Am I asking for accolades? Nope, but I want to make another point. Of the 5 people involved, one of which was hurt, no one thought to call 911.

So many times, people forget to call the 911 or in most cases, people ASSUME someone else is doing it. Well folks, in this case no one was.

If you ever do witness a car accident, that is either quite bad, or someone is injured please call 911. It is better to call and get an officer out there to help with the reports and directing traffic than to put yourself at risk of oncoming traffic.

Afraid to call 911? It really is not a big deal. It is not scary, but prepared to offer the following information.

1. Where are you? Name the street you are on and the closest cross-street, if possible.
2. Report the incident. In my case, it was a car accident.
3. Be detailed as possible as to, how many cars, people, injuries, are they blocking traffic?
4. Stay calm
5. Give your name and phone number if they ask for it.

Basically my phone call to the 911 dispatcher was as followed...."Hi I am on Temecula Parkway east of La Paz. There has been a traffic collision involving 4 cars. One woman is complaining of her head hurting because she hit the head rest. Two cars are blocking on lane of traffic."

Friends it was really that easy and they sent out Emergency Services.

Also, if you were a witness to the accident, stay on the scene until an officer tells you that you can go. Your testimony may be important.

Though this does take some time out of your day and can be quite inconvenient, you would want someone to do it for you.

The only harm done is your time, and well, in my case a broken blue-tooth. I lost a piece while I was calling 911. No harm right? :)

Thanks for tuning in to "Notes from the Fire Chiefs Daughter"

Imagine That

For many many years my heart has bled for people who have struggled with image. Having been through my own identity crisis myself, not knowing who I was and desiring to be someone, I know how hard it can be.

Let me give you some background....Hmmm do I really want to share this? Oh well, here I go. I have struggled with the concept of image and looking good for years. At 24 years of age, I still have never been kissed and never had a boyfriend. I mean really, there is nothing wrong with me, I just have high standards is what I would say. But deep down I kept asking myself..."What is wrong with me?" And, to be honest, I was lied to by people I care about as to what a guy really looks for and how I dont match up to the standards. Since being large my whole life, anytime I would ask why I did not have a boyfriend, I would be told something along the lines of "Emily, guys are visual people. Maybe if you lost some weight guys would want to date you." Man that really messed with me. I questioned God. Why am I like this? What did I ever do to you God?

The question is, why do I mention this now? Do I want you to feel sorry for me? NO! What I am saying is that this gives you background as to the life that I have lived.

I am here to share with you that God has restored me and given me the truth. Are guys visual people? Sure they are,but we are too. But is that all they look for? NO! I want someone to fall in love with my heart, not the way I look. One can argue that there must be a "physical attraction" whatever that means. What does that actually mean? That is an answer that I am trying to still figure out.

But I can say one thing.....

My heart bleeds for people who only see themselves through the distorted mirror of our media. Friends, that is not reality! Just watch this for proof! The questions lies then, what is our identity found in? Is it new clothes, purses, makeup, going the gym? Friends, I can tell you that these things are temporary and will never fullfill you. But, you and I both buy into these lies. I am just as guilty as wanting to have my hair done, cute clothes, new bags, new car, more money,but do I find who I am in these things? Sometimes, but I am learning better. Please don't get me wrong, owning these things are not bad, but we MUST evaluate our heart for owning these things. Do we think that we are better people for owning them? These things fade and no matter how much of these things I have, I still am left empty and wanting more.


So again, where is our identity supposed to lay? I must try to find my identity in my creator, Jesus Christ. He is the one who created me and I should strive to be more like Him. I am eternally grateful that He created me the way I am. In order to truly understand ourselves and who we are, we must study the one who created us. I can try compare it to studying a Monet painting. If you were going to study it, you would most likely study the artist and what his inspiration was and what he desired to convey. This also holds true to the Creator of us. We must study who He is and what he desires for our lives to truly understand identity.

So going back to the beginning. It does not matter if you are "fat," "ugly," "poor," "homely," "Insert word here." You were created for a purpose and a plan. Continue to look toward the one who created you and NOT to the media who desires to change you.

Friends, you are loved! You ARE beautiful!

Now that's a lot of DOUGH!

So I got a call today from the Hospital I will be a "guest" at for my surgery! They informed me that not only do I have a hospital admittance copay of $125, I also have to pay up front $1400 to cover my portion of the hospital bill.

HOLY MOLY, I was not expecting to come up with that money BEFORE the surgery. I was expecting it after for sure, but man, what am I going to do?

I trust God's provision in it all and know that I am supposed to have this surgery, but oh my goodness!

GOD I trust you. You will provide if I am supposed to have this surgery. $1400 is not a lot of money to you. It is to me...dont get me wrong, but God you are faithful!

Please pray that God will come through!

NOT ME MONDAY!!!!

Ever do something that you did NOT want to share with anyone? Well this is the place where we can share things we certainly did NOT do this week!

As a Fire Chief's daughter, I certainly did NOT leave my hair straightener on ALL day while I was at work. If I did, I certainly would have learned from my mistake. Certainly I did NOT do it again the next day. I am smarter than that. I would never do that!!!!

Also, in the attempt to purge my cupboards I brought some Fiddle Faddle (caramel popcorn) to work. I was thinking it would be a good idea because I did NOT need it in my house. I certainly did NOT go to Target yesterday and see a tin on sale full of caramel popcorn. I surely would NOT buy that to eat considering I just got rid of my previous container. NO I am way more disciplined than that!

It's About More Than Food!

OH man it has been a while since I have been on! I have had a busy weekend with friends, cleaning, and getting all my ducks in a row for the surgery.

Yesterday, I spend such amazing time with my friends! They made my birthday feel so special. I am so lucky to have amazing friends.

I have realized how important it is to have a community of people who will rally around you and ask the hard questions, and challenge you to grow in your faith and in your character. During yesterday's visit down to San Diego, I was challenged even more as to why I am having this surgery and what an emotional ride I will be taking.

For those of you who don't know me really well, my weight has been a shield to protect me. I have been able to absorb satan's lies in the extra weight and pack them on. I have always felt "safe" from those who try to hurt me. With my weight, I have not had to be vulnerable to others, or myself as well. I can hide behind this weight and live. Someone once told me "you dont want to be a miserable fat person." It is already one strike against me being fat, don't need to be miserable too! Though this advice was given in love, it made me realize that I better be fake otherwise people won't like me, because they sure as heck won't like me because I am fat. What a huge LIE from Satan!

I have lived a life not wanting to be honest with myself that sometimes life sucks. And friends, sometimes life does suck. Being fat sucks! Feeling unhealthy sucks! Getting bumped into because I take up more space sucks! Not feeling desirable sucks! (Beauty and desirable are SO different.) Do I have a lot to complain about in life? No, not any more than anyone else. Is it safe to say that I can be vulnerable? Yeah it is! I NEED to be. It is a progression.

After this surgery, I am convinced that it will all hit the fan! Emotions I never knew existed will surface. Friends, beyond this weight loss I am sure to experience, true healing and introspection of my own life will take place. Am I ready for that? I HAVE TO BE! I truly believe that my weight is not about the food. It is not about the weight! It is about emotional baggage that I have carried around with the 200lbs of extra weight.
Am I nervous for it all to surface? YES, are you kidding! It will be hard. Tears will be shed, life will change, but I must endure the battle. God has a huge plan for my life. This is just the beginning of His plan for my life.

The real question my friends is, are you ready for this? This blog, I pray, will be a place where you can seek inside yourself as well. Let's face the music together. Let's work together to see why we are the way we are. What in our lives need to be purged out? What are you hiding? Why will you not be vulnerable to the one's you love, or yourself?

Let's seek out the Lord together in this purpose. He is so good to us. Where our sin abounds, grace abounds even more.

Let us be cleansed and seek our Father in Heaven to give us healing.
For me it's about more than Food.

Fill in the one about yourself "It is about more than......"
Alcohol? Prescription drugs? An Affair? Porn? Bitterness? Anger? Rage?

Friend's work together to come to the bottom of our heart and seek true healing!

"Living is a Commitment"

Man I have got to tell you, I have not been feeling very creative lately. I also have not been doing anything with my life lately. I feel exhausted! Silly one might think. What is there to be exhausted about? I mean really, I live by myself and I work. Not too exciting right? Well I must say my body has just been exhausted!

What I can say though is that this GBP stuff is driving me CRAZY! I wish I could just do it already! I have to admit, I am getting a bit apprehensive. I was eating Chipotle with a wonderful friend and realized, "this is the last time I will be eating this!" I have learned to embrace food....and GOOD FOOD at that!

I would be totally dishonest if I said that I am ready. As I look around, my house is a mess and I am just exhausted about thinking about everything that must be done!

I sought a pep-talk from my dad tonight. He has gone through the surgery too. I told him I needed a little encouragement because this is a HUGE commitment. He kindly told me "living is a huge commitment too!" Um....thanks for the pep-talk, I think. Haha I did not know exactly how to take that pep-talk. I just laughed and thought...hmm you are right!

Living IS a commitment. So the question comes down to it....How am I going to live? Miserably large and unhealthy? Or commit to weight loss, less food, exercise, and a long and healthy life? Well the choice is quite clear!

Welcome to a new life, HUGE commitment, and increased Life! Is is worth it? YES Scary?
YOU BET!

Laughter is the Best Medicine

Hello Friends,

I have not blogged in a few days for many reasons. I wish I could give you a really good one, but the truth is I have been busy. With what you might ask? I have been wasting time looking at these websites. If you have not gone to them, DO IT! You will laugh so so hard. People in life are crazy! I am sure glad to not be a part of this crazy crew.....YET!

Click on the links below.

People of Walmart: Basically the name says it all! Some are not so appropriate, but some are just so funny! Enjoy these people and I hope you are not on this website!

Regretsy: I am sure you have all heard of the website etsy.com Basically it is a place where people sell things that they make. WELL regretsy is where people have posted RIDICULOUS things people are trying to sell on etsy. Oh man it is also quite funny.

Maybe after an intervention, I will be back into the serious blogging world, but for now, enjoy!